im sorry to even go as far as asking
 

i know its inapropriate to ask something like this in a disscussion forum..
so in advance im saying sorry...

im from a white 28 year old male from south africa. i dont own a computer
and what programing i know is from "stollen" time on a company computer. I
could get fired if the owner does wana. He knows that i do but are lenient at
the moment.
i only get paid about 550 us $. (R4150) after flat rent and bills are paid
there just aint enough for a laptop payment or even a college education fee
(what i would love to do) and i cant consider going to a college if i dont
have a computer.

Laptops around here cost about 1000$us...

any one out there able to help me out in any way?

(take out the word internet so its only gmail)